Jamie's Journal

07:06 pm - Swinging from the Branch of a Broken Family Tree -- Edie Brickell

A few points.

- Israel is a war, and my heart is breaking.
- She's making me care again about her leaving, and my heart is breaking.
- Beth is coming back early (tomorrow!) instead of Sunday, and things are going to be all right.

Later Days.
--Jamie

Current Mood: crushed

01:08 am - It's So Easy When The Whole World Fits Inside of Your Arms -- Jack Johnson

First of all:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, REBECCA!!!!!

There.  :-D

Now...
Amanda is out of my life again, and this time, I don't feel...anything.  I think it's because of Beth...and that scares me moreso than anything.

Later Days.
--Jamie

Current Mood: sore

12:54 pm - I'm Not Aware of Too Many Things/ I Know What I Know If You Know What I Mean -- Edie Brickell

I got a call from an unfamiliar number yesterday after my last (!) day of Partial.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Jamie...it's Beth."
After weeks and weeks of not talking to me and a few nasty emails from her girlfriend, she called me.  She proceeded to apologize about everything, the (untrue) things her girlfriend had proclaimed, her behaviour, etc.  She then asked for forgiveness and if we could hang out sometime.
Because my policy is Eternal Forgiveness, I said I would love to hang out.
We spent the whole day with Josh and Chalin, and partook in a number of adventures (sneaking onto the fifteenth-foor balcony of the Cathedral of Learning and taking pictures, going to the Carnegie Museum, running around Oakland) and had a grand old time.  She texted me after she dropped me off at home:
"I like you."
Another:
"I liked you all along..."
...and others in that fashion.
We met up for Flagstaff later that night, and something...clicked.  Its funny, when we first met, there was no instant attraction nor fireworks, let alone sparks, but now I get that odd sensation that rumbles in the pit of one's belly, and clinically dizzy, and I think...what a world, what a world.
This is the start of something, maybe.

Later Days.
--Jamie

03:24 am - William, It Was Really Nothing -- The Smiths

A little known fact:

When playing "The Question Game", it is interesting to note that, in the end, you find yourself with a handful of answers.

Later Days.

--Jamie

Current Mood: satisfied

12:57 pm

My sister....
...what a fucking bitch.
Fuck you, faux-hippie dipshit.

11:28 pm - Let it Be -- The Beatles

So apparently, I'm capable of stealing other people's girlfriends?
Ridiculous.
Bitch, please, I don't need to steal.  

Later Days.
--Jamie

Current Mood: surprised

03:21 pm - Hey, My Summer Girl -- Beck

I graduated from high school yesterday, and after the ceremony, all I wanted to do was go home and take a nice, long nap.
Yeah, I'm pretty lame.

Graduation party tonight at my house.  If you see this, you're invited.  6pm.  Call me for directions.
Food is provided.

Later Days.
--Jamie

05:42 pm - I Am A Rock/I Am An Island -- Simon and Garfunkel

Today, high school ended.

When I walked out the door, I was smiling as my eyes brimmed with water.

The end.

Later Days.

--Jamie

Current Mood: blank

07:41 pm - All The Lonely People, Where Do They All Belong? -- The Beatles

I tried not to think too much about Jeff this weekend; rather, I set time aside for myself to mourn.  Perhaps I'll never really have any closure or that goodbye jive or anything convenient, but I can try to let go and accept, slowly, surely.
I still miss him.  He probably knew me better than a lot of people.
He took a lot of secrets with him, and a lot of fear.
I'm so sorry, Jeff.

In other news, I have a date on Friday, and I'm really excited.  So life goes on?  How funny.

Later Days.
--Jamie

Current Mood: sad

09:33 pm - I Wanna Be Sedated -- The Ramones

RIP Jeffrey Lee
1969-2006
You'll always be my pro.